Over the last two+ years I've been here I've had to grapple with some things that have made me feel down, unmotivated, and depressed. I haven't found many people my age (I'm 30) to talk to that have similar interests so it can be kind of lonely when I wanna game with friends or talk about design or wrestling or something. And that's not to say I haven't met awesome people, I have met many, but everyone is doing their thing, have their own interests or are in different fields. Even more so in my field as I've been looking to grow as a designer and developer but find that I am at or above the current knowledge and motivation threshold available here locally, and there just isn't much industry to begin with. As the saying goes, if you want to be better you must be around people better than you and that has also led to depression.
There is a chance I might have to leave EP in the future so that I may grow, find the right tools, and build something that I can bring back because here. As it stands, here there isn't much in the way of jobs outside of retail, warehouses, or customer service so trying to find something that doesn't pay peanuts is difficult and has forced me to work remotely. And that is important because if I want to keep pursuing my game development dreams, I need to work to pay the bills while I build my game. I have no idea where I will end up, if life takes me down that path, but I need to do it soon so that I can return quickly. Whatever ends up happening, I look forward to the future.
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